Don't you hate it when you try to be there for someone, when youre there for them months at a time and when you need them they arent there at all. Dont you hate it when you help someone but they never take you seriously. Whats the point of being there for someone and they dont change. Change takes time but still. This was ridiculous. I know what kind of people I fall for and they always turn out to be the same. Looks wise they are different, personality different, but when it comes to their inner issues its all the same. I want to fall for someone, not just want to help "fix" them.

Nicole and I got into a fight at the convention I was at. It was stupid and not the place or time. But deep down I wanted to make scene in front of you. just to have you look at me again.

So I've been hanging out with Maia and a bunch of other people the past couple days because of a convention. I can say I don't like her anymore but I just want to be in a relationship. I want to have someone to depend on (this is going to be the same rant as usual) her feelings for me changed because she still loves her ex girlfriend who is probably still her girlfriend. When she's done with college she'll move away and I'll never see her again. It will be one of those stories of somebody who I used to know. I'm just waiting for a new chapter in my life to begin. But I don't know how or when it will begin. It's like the writer of my life has writers block and doesn't know what to do with me next. The next chapter will take mnonths and maybe years. I think I can wait. It has to be worth the wait. Right?